Saturday, May 7, 2011


explain to me WHY THE FUCK

this parent sat their children at MY FUCKING table when there are THREE completely EMPTY tables to my FUCKING RIGHT !!!!

i swear to GOD i'm gonna loose my cookies one day over this shit


spitting applications

i bet you miss when i just sent drunk text at 1am
i couldn't sleep ... again, i swear this insomnia is annoying !!! i did take some Tylonol PM & finally fall out
you would think walking 8 miles would wear me out, but i swear it doesn't, maybe i need to up my miles

anywhosit, my point, or what i was trying to say Jon, is that you spread yourself to thin
you know, you really should spend some time with some ONE or something
don't feel like you need to see me
we will always be good :)
but you really should spend time with someone instead of a little bit with every single person
that's just my opinion, i think you need some quality time
i don't like just having a few short hours, it's not enough time to really talk
i mean, just skimming the surface :( not a fan, can't get into any depth cause there's not enough time to

i'll catch up with you in NC for a few day's or so, if you like, you know i LOVE the Carolinas :)


Last time i applied at a grocery store for a job, you walked in, filled out the application & talked with someone
now it's all done online which sucks !!! for every shit job !!! oye veh, pain in my buttocks

gotta take a personality profile test for this print shop job ... it's between me & one other candidate
this is the job i thought i just didn't get
turns out they REALLY are tossing over the decision
which still doesn't make sense to me, usually ONE stands out ... or you interview until ONE stands out
in all my hiring years i never dilly dallied for WEEKS !!! and that's before the recession when you just had a FEW apply to begin with !!!

Friday's interview was the quickest to date, there were a TON of people in there
i ALMOST hit the guy who interviewed me in the parking lot !! F-ing IDIOT
this moron is in front of me coming into the parking lot, he bust a Left into a parking spot THEN Reverses to get into a spot behind him across to my RIGHT
i slammed on my brakes !!! and proceeded to watch this douche bag, pull forward AGAIN infront of me & finally back is POS car into the spot. I didn't do anything, on the outside, but mouth "good job"
i parked and here comes douche, i open the door & holding it for him & he's like "aren'ti supposed to get that for you"
"if your quick enough" i said, at the elevator, he takes the stairs & that's when it occures to me this is someone with the company
waiting for the elevator there is a short lady, half crying and pacing/circling me, very distraught. we get in the elevator & she's all snotty, i say "allergies" & damn she almost broke down
inside the waiting area is when douche comes out & sit's beside me & is about to say something until someone calls him, he's gone. thank GOD cause i'm sure i would have said some smart ass remark at that moment
the whole interview which lasted maybe 6mins, the guy is scratching his nose !!! i don't know what everyone was allerlgic to up in there but crazy
but it's all sales & commission based, i swear, i asked the chick this on the phone & she said, no & paid training blah blah
she must get a commission based on how many people she get's in to interview. AND there was about 5 others there to interview as well
'eh we shall see, i'm gonna go monday, it's at least something extra i can do, along with another shit job

whatever, i'm spending my Sat at the library filling out 5 applications !! wOO hOO

it's sad when Friday night you jogging til 1am & then up & a the Library by 10am as soon as they open LoL
i'm not sure if i'm turning old or into a GeeK

Tonights a party at Current !! that'll be fun, haven't been out in DC since .... ah Zegfields !!!
i just hope it's not overly crowded in there, i ALWAYs has been when i've been there !!!
OH you know Steves is closed right, yeah, so dont try to go there

theres a few things i miss with having this tongue ring
#1 Spitting !!!! i used to be able to spit for distance !!! not i'm lucky to get it out the window
#2 when i have a few drinks i develop a lisp !!! WTF
#3 i mistake it for a pill and drink a gallon of water trying to swollow it before i realized it was the ring i was filling
#4 the tip of my tongue is still numb ish

Don't forget to Call you MoM tomorrow !!! Mothers Day :)

alright i'm off here, i need a V8 & got 2 more applications to go
MaD LoVe
yEr reD ruNNer

skull candy = Morphine

Wednesday, May 4, 2011


ok I have been smoking cigarettes for ... 13yrs
and never in my 13yrs NEVER ONCE has my fucking finger tip turned yellow !!!!

ok I used to chain smoke like a damn banchy !!! 24/7 and never once did my god damn finger change color !!!


is this some new campaign to mark smokers !!!

ill send a picture ... or attach one here, shit, I didn't smoke that many, like ... 10 many be 12

fucked up


Monday, May 2, 2011

bin Dead

i LOVE the folks that are thankful his ass is burning in hell for all eternity

i love the people that don't believe he's dead LoL
(most of conspiracy theorist ARE pot heads) i swear, you tell me ???

and i LOVE the people that CAN"T BELIEVE Obama is taking credit for it ... really, who should he be giving credit to ???

see i SHOULD have gone down to CELEBRATE & take credit !!!

it was on a total whime !!! i just happen to be PMSing wow
mother nature, HELLA timeing !!!!


well my sunday consisted of some amazing soul food omg
I need more

and at 11 you informing me of Bin Ladens Death which NOW i wish i had joined the party at the White House cause it looked like FUN not to mention the FACT that i was metroing right through the damn city just a moment before your text arrived LoL figures ... i have the CLOSEST to GooD Timing Ever Missed

iv been missing calls all weekend and this morning realized my phone has been in silent mode lol
I swear

unpacking is a pain in my assets

but I only have myself to blame for this stupidity

my feet hurt, got up & ran, gasped for air, then walked & repeated until i felt like i was gonna throw up, that food was GREAT but my diegestive track is POed at me

did I tell you its these diet pills that are making me short of breath !!! wtf especially since they claim to work best with a diet & exercise, kinda hard to exercisewhen you can't breathe !!!
so no more diet pills, i don't know why i try them anyways !!! their as successful as my dating attempts !!!

but no more of that nonsense either, though i do get some GREAT stories out of those attempts

anywhosit, i was recently told i was sending "mixed signals"

i don't think i'm a mixed signal person but my biker does ... i think my signal are just hard to disiphere but certainly not mixed ... and everything gets lost in translation over chat/text etc

anywhosit, i'm at the library now & must get some shit done & go apply for some jobs at the shopping center by my house

did you get my res??

peace out warrior
yer red reactor

skull candy = Frou Frou (hear me out)

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

posT wEEk enD

well my weekend was pretty good, Friday diner w/R & the fam

Saturday had a date … and was again reminded that I need to STOP trying to date
This guy didn’t say 10 word the whole date
The DRIVE was longer than the date for gods sake !!!!
When I got there, I was walking in & saw him sitting outside & you know first impressions, this guy is ROCKING a pair of jeans with a hole in them at the thigh about a foot long, spotted it a block away … really, not one pair of jeans without holes ???? sorry not at OUR age dude

Fine, go in & get a pool table & shoot some pool.
I try to make conversation but it was NOT happening, not with his one word answers
I asked if he was shy ?? he said not at all … he did not ask me ONE question NOTHING

I ordered some food cause I was starving !!! but shortly after the food was there he said he had to leave after this game cause he parked in a 2hr parking spot and didn’t want a ticket, the date was less than an hour … once the game was done, he racked it up & walked away … didn’t get to finish my food AND you know how happy I am without food

i don't know what the deal was, not interested ?? shy ?? retarded ?? Married Probably !!! cause it had occured to me that he never once called on the phone, just text ... yeah, probably married, or involved
i'm done for the gaBillionTH time !!!!

SO that night went w/my girls to Zeigfields AND enjoyed the penis show ALL night

Got LOADED, apparently I picked up the Drag Queen Bees feather boa and walked off with it, well upstairs LOL later a bouncer (I think a bouncer) came up & retrieved it lol it was a VERY nice boa & it smelled AMAZING
the bouncer was nice too, and straight, well so he said, i still say you have to be at least bi to work there !!! LoL though there was no shortage of straight


I LOVE that pLace !!! it always’s cheers me UP !!!

Sunday was spent in recovery

Monday heard from my future job & plan on a job offer today

Last night didn't sleep for shit !!! aweful dreams all night long waking me up terrified !!! why can't i NOT remember my dreams

then just kept falling right back into it
this haunted house during a rain storm, lost power
had to go in the basement & flip the fuse without a flashlight
but what was geting me was i was being chased by wind and something invisible pushing me, ripping at me ... scarred me

i'm considering having a baby with a gay couple ... i think that would be nice, i'm done with straight men !!!

the ones i want don't want me AND the ones that want me i don't want
it's just not my thing

SO plan B
they would be better than a straight one anyway's !!! especially the ones i pick !!!

annnywhosit, i'm off here only an hour on this battery & of course there is someone at the ONE outlet available at this library, UPDATE already !!!

mad love,
yer frustrated red

skull candy = Nina

Monday, April 18, 2011

Mr 1000

So I’m trying this online site, different one, maybe this time it’ll have better results

God knows I’m done meeting men in bars!!! After OH #3 most wanted I’m rather terrified to meet in person until I have googled any possible candidates !!!

I WILL NOT be on unsolved mysteries !!! or that “I survived” but I’ll jacked up now show NOOOOO

This site is funny EVERY single guy has down for children *undecided*
Isn’t that something YOU KNOW ?? if it were up to men, the human race would NOT be ruling the planet !!! rabbits would

I had my honest age up there but NO one hit me back … I think they think my pics are up to date w/my real age … I do look great for my age !!! so I knocked a few years off and BAM got some attention … I think ALL women lie about their age, when we’re young we claim to be older when we’re older, younger
BUT that is cause of you men, you guys want one or the other, I’ve never met a man who dates his own age … or a woman for that matter LoL

Annnywhosit, I got little Italy that looks nice, Puerto Rico AND a mixed brother with a 1000 GXSR  SO we shall see how chatting goes, that’s half the battle right there with online dating, over half end up being virtual pen pals that inevitable fizzle out !!!

Today is a Georgious Day !!! I’v got my window wide up and the sun IS shinning !!! the plants LOVE it !!!

Having a wonderful latte’ mmmmmmm

I’m definitely getting in my 8 miles today !!! maybe MORE !!! what else do I have to do
OH find a fucking job, I run out of $$ like, SHITTAAHHHHHH

Yeah, that is a necessity to, finding a FT job !!! Full Time is what I’m meditating for YES

Alrighty I’m off !!!

I thought I sent this out already BUT here it is nearly 10pm I spent the day hiking from Rock Creek to Adams Morgan !!! beautiful Day for a great hike through the woods & into the city. Nearly 2hr each way !!!

Well I’m off now, desperately need a shower, the FUNK is STRONG on Me

Well now it’s MONDAY and Ive been chatting with Mr 1000 GXSR oh my
Just fucking guess what color his bike is !!!! mmmmmmmm
And I said I was going back to white … sigh, he’s black hahaha

Got in interview this THURSDAY at 11am !!!  this IS MY JOB

I’m having the worst time breathing this week  truly, I can’t job let alone run, walking takes a good mile before I get past feeling like I’m gonna faint SUCKS, I’m so short winded, god forbid I have to go up a flight of stairs, I gotta break for air half way up
Shortness of breath followed by lightheaded ness and fatigue ugh

AND don’t tell me to go to the Dr ok !!! people with Ins go to Dr’s the rest of us tough it out
My biker tries to tell me he would go see a Dr. without ins !!! to which I say NO THE FUCK YOU WOULDN’T !!!
Let say I have a few hundred to toss at a Dr. with shortness of breath issues, he’s not gonna know a THING until he’s schedules some test and gets the results BUT as soon as I say I have no Ins., he’s gonna say, stop jogging until you get Ins

So as tempting as that is … I WILL pass until I get Ins

Well I’m off to job hunt for a while

Mad LoVe
yeR Red

skull candy = letters to cleo